Boy, I’ve really abandoned this little app. Oh well, might as well get back into it for a little bit. I’m not sure where I’ve left off in my excursion into religion, but I’ll say what the current dance is. I’m just identifying as pagan, and I’ve taken on a more pantheist ideology in that I believe there is a certain divine energy within all things, but especially certain ones. This energy manifests as deities (for me the Greek ones) as well as beings (Jesus Christ and Lucifer). I haven’t decided if I’m going to dedicate myself to any of the Greek pantheon seeing as my career goals change practically every month and my devotion will be directly correlated with my career.
This semester I had the privilege of taking a class about women and the religious experience and through it I learned about gnostic christianity, which gave me an insight to Jesus that I never got before. The church taught that Jesus was a direct mirror of his father, a violent war god that I genuinely feel no love towards. It’s taken some soul searching, but I’ve come to understand and examine the disconnections between the father, son and Holy Spirit. The father is the one I avoid. The Christian description of father is not something I feel love from, he’s nothing like Zeus or Thor, the Christian father is what I personally define as evil. Closed minded, jealous and dangerous. His son, however, embodies all the potential love and beauty that he could exhibit, yet instead chooses not to. Jesus is love and progress and open mindedness and kindness, everything his father isn’t. Some may argue that Jesus got these traits from his father, but I don’t agree. I personally believe that Jesus gained these traits from his earthly mother. His powers to heal and perform supernatural miracles, those he got from his deity father.
To continue discussing my relationship with the Christian mythos, I’m still a Luciferian, and my incorporation of Jesus into my life is connected to that. I believe that Jesus and Lucifer are connected, if not possibly one in the same, and through this they are teaching me so much not only about myself but about the person I could be and the world I’m living in.
Finally, I’d like to announce that I’ve officially decided to peruse religious studies as my masters. I’m hoping to attend Naropa University in Boulder, Colorado, but we’ll see where the money takes me.
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